Waiting...

And the waiting begins... again.

I'm truly not getting my hopes up until I see a positive this time... no matter how strong the symptoms are in a week or two. If it doesn't happen this time, then we are done "trying" for a while. I'm going to take it that it's not meant to be right now.

But in the back of my mind is always the fear that my body isn't the same after everything I went through and that I may never have a child again. I'm hoping and praying that's not the case but it's on both of our minds right now. They say I'm fine and back to normal but there's no telling the lasting effects (if any) without testing that hasn't been done... and hopefully won't have to be done.